Sunday, February 28, 2010


well i flaked on y'day and today's not too much better....just hung out with friends and chatted online and stuff like that...though i did finally get myself set up with skype so that's a good thing....otherwise not much new here in leah

Friday, February 26, 2010

bad friday

after not getting any sleep last night due to coughing and choking i had to call out from work again.  i was so hoping to make a full week for the first time in over a month snd there went that again.  and beyond that i had to back out on the wine tasting....i'm really sad and frustrated right now.

 i thought that maybe the left ovr drowsiness and numbness was from all the meds i tried taking last night so i took a showeer and i couoldn't even manage to stand up to the pressure of the water and now i'm .back in bed again trying to sleep at this horrible almost but not quite upright angle. it rots but it's the only way i can breathe without pain and gasping for air.  of course it makes it hard to sleep which is a problem since i'm so tired i'm actually shaking.

ok positive thinking next weekend i'm going to be doing an adoption event! and Jo's big b'day dinner at a new restaurant we've never been to before and some friends will be coming allong so that's fun! i wonder if in the  meantime i can find something to challenge my week with or if i should let sleeping dogs lie for just one more week.....

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Rainy Thursday

So I'm sitting herer listening all day to the rain pouring around me and somehow it's given me yet another idea for the list....though it sounds odd in correlation to the rain...i wanna learn how to play a fiddle or violin so i can learn to play bluegrassy type's me so none of this makes any danged sense.../but what the hey...maybe i need to go ahead and add it to the list...

Wednesday, February 24, 2010


So nothing much done today as it relates to the challenge BUT....I did get my weekend project better organized...HOORAY! gotta love organization! and got my taxes finished and submitted and notified that both were accepted! YAY!!! so all in all a decent day!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010


Ok, so I'm jump starting the list a bit early.  A friend is hosting a wine tating so I'm gonna go and that'll be the first off the list...I'm so excited! I'll try and take some pictures to post...and I'll make sure to tell you all about it! Here's to the first sip of Challenging Life!


Monday, February 22, 2010


Went to work today and got some of the mess with blue cross blue shield straightened out....fingers crossed that the rest occurs soon...had a LOOOOOOONg day though because of the negative work environment so I did a straight 8 w/out a lunch and left....immediately after getting home I laid down and slept for HOURS! I hope Warren comes back from his trip and is ready to bring me on full-time!

Fingers Crossed!

Sunday, February 21, 2010


Fairly productive Jo's taxes totally done and mine almost totally done...I came across a small issue though with my 1098-E's as in I didn't get any but I thought I should have since I managed to get alot of my student loans paid off and the remaining ones condenced into one bill and it's paid on time every month....does anyone know the deal with these danged forms?

anyway i also managed to get some laundry taken care of and some sweeping done...

so like i said fairly productive...and the nice part of that is it makes my desire to attack the list seem that much more realistic and possible and makes me feel like i can do this challenge.

Have a good one y'all and I'll talk to you tomorrow!

Saturday, February 20, 2010


Nothing new and exciting to report for today but I did get really caught up on some chores I'd been letting slide and that's a good thing...can't let my day to day life suffer cause in it's own way day to day living is a challenge itself.  Maybe it's only the bridge between the good parts but you still gotta cross it.

Friday, February 19, 2010

Day 2 clearly thinking about challenges I went into this aware of  has made me come up with more than even I could have imagined possible.  The list keeps growing every time I turn.

Still not sure what task one will be but at the same time I'm thinking I may get more than one done at a time and if that's the that a bad thing? I don't think so I think that the more I do the more I'll find I want to do and try and the more I'll experience.

One odd thing I've been thinking about is what I would love to do if anything were possible and I keep coming back to the same ill formed dream hiding in the back of my mind....I'd love to own my own bookstore.  I'd have both a new and used section.  A children's section with soft comfy chairs, reading times, activities and fun stuff like that.  I'd also have a teachers section with all kinds of materials and supplies.  The different sections of the bookstore would have different would have maps and globes, languages would have sayings in all different languages posted around, science fiction would have a spaceship type feel, science more of a lab room type feel.

Silly I know but god it's fun to think about.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Day 1

 I was so excited to log on today and see I've already had a comment, 2 votes (though they didn't say what for) and 3 THANK YOU!

I read in the paper today about a correlation being researched between happiness (or an attempt at happiness) and lowering the risk of heart disease and it made me think wow maybe I'm onto something...maybe I'm on the right track.


I've had a few q's asking me what my first challenge is going to be and when I'm going to start and I think that I will do my first challenge in March...that way I've got a week or so to get myself a bit more pulled together and get my taxes done (hey some of this stuff costs

I'm still trying to decide what my first challenge will be though at the moment I'm leaning towards the bar and flirting...seems kinda easy and maybe a nice way to start off. 

One thing I realized though is that for some of my challenges I'm gonna need your assistance if anyone has a blind date they wanna set me up on let me know.  I'm willing to adjust my schedule...such as it is...and heck I'll even travel a bit to try it.

Oh well...more on these thoughts tomorrow.

Love YA!

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

The Challenge

Having been inspired by first the book and then the movie Julie and Julia (aka the Julie/Julia Project) I have decided to grab my life by the horns and take control. I am going to Challenge Life!

The Challenge:
To once a month force myself to do something new and different. Something I've always wanted to do or something I'm terrified to do and sometimes something that someone else has challeneged me to do. And to DAILY get on this blog and write about how this Challenge in whole and in it's parts is affecting my life.

The Goal:
To get myself back out in the world. To begin living life once again to its fullest. To find joy and happiness. To take the 'one of these days' out of my vocabulary and live my life for whatever it's length to its fullest.

Where I'm coming from:
I've fallen off the track of life. I got lost in the mundane and everyday. I hate where I am and can't see a way out. I know what I want but can't figure out how to get there from here. I'm in a rut. Somethings I gave up on because it wasn't "appropriate" or "proper" or because I was no good at it. Others I gave up on because I was afraid. Many I gave up on because of $ and time. I'm tired of quitting life. How do I expect to reach my goals of living a good life if I quit at everything? I can't. So now it's time to jump on that horse and ride!

My few intersperced tries at life:
I got married (because that's what you're supposed to do after college) and though he was a friend there was never anything more to it than that and the divorce that followed has caused shattering effects every where I turned.

But it also gave me the kick in the pants to do a few new things...I became an apprentice pyrotechnician. Yup that's right me a jewish girl from long island blows things up...go figure....and I LOVE IT! The artistry and intrigue make me feel alive!

I went to a rodeo and loved it. I also made friends with many Bullriders and maybe part of this is their zest for life flowing into me as well! The lights and noise! The drama and silliness! How could anyone not love watching a RODEO!

I traveled to Arizona to see the place where one of my favorite TV shows was filmed and vacationed with a bunch of strangers who also love the show and walked away with the greatest group of friends and frenemies you'd ever hope to assemble.

I went to Disney World! I made a fool of myself standing in line for autographs with characters and talking toeveryone i met, even complete strangers that were on their own vacations because now they were a part of my vacation. I got up and danced in the middle of my hotels cafeteria during breakfast...why because the usic was fun! I sat in the pilot's seat on the airplane on the trip down because I was so excited about my trip that I told everyone about it and when the pilot's heard they invited me in while we changed planes in Charlotte.

In High School I went to France as part of a Student Exchange! Talk about life changing. Imagine being 16 years old alone in Paris and lost and loving it! I was giddy and excited and nervous and scared.

But through all of these roller coaster emotions....I was ALIVE! I did all of these things and I treasure them and hold onto them like balls of light in the darkest moments. I shut my eyes and can feel those moments again though brief they remind me that life is for the living.