Cleaning House

So...I was looking at my list and realized there's a few things on there that I no longer have the desire to do...because I've found someone very special and I'm certainly not going to put that at risk just for the sake of my challenge...and lets be honest the point of the challenge was to improve my life...and I think I have without doing these things....I marked them with the word CANCEL and I also marked off a few with the word DONE....and I'm going to add a few new things that D has suggested....does anyone else have some suggestions for me?

Fighting my demons

So....I just discovered one down side to dating a photographer...he has to go out with absolutely gorgeous, stunning women and photograph them in a variety of states of dress....I'm suddenly feeling nervous and phyiscally self-aware and not in the good sense....but I trust D and know that he is honest and truthful and we have an agreement of both exclusivity and honesty. 

I need to trust him and our relationship and I have no reason not to....but a small part of me is still a bit nervous...am I being stupid or silly or just honest?

It's an odd sensation

A feeling of happiness and calmness seems to have settled over me and after so many years of hunting for that impossible thing I feel suddenly as though I'm done searching.  Does this make any sense? Am I babbling aimlessly? Have I yet stopped smiling?

As I said it's the oddest sensation....